It's Monday and I Find Myself Sick.

I woke to one of the sickest articles I have ever read. This almost makes me want to fall back asleep and hope things like this don't really happen.

You take this family in Milton, Massachusetts. You have these children, a 5-year, 9-year, and 17-year old daughter, and a 23-year old son. Cops get a call about a disturbance at the household. the 23-year old is going absolutely berserk with a knife and has the 5-year old child hostage.

When the cops arrive, the door is locked and no one is opening it for them. When they finally break down the door, they see the man with the child in his arms and right there within the view of the police, he beheads her.

I am absolutely mortified, sick, and haunted by such stories and images. What brings on such killings, such hatred, and sickness? The news and media is plagued with "necessary" violence. They make it seem "okay" to harm your siblings. These things are not okay. Killing is not okay. Murder is not okay. Crime is not okay. America is not okay.

And I am not okay. America doesn't settle quite well in my stomach. The reason is this: we are the only country that revolves around such practices. Our media is empty without sex, drugs, and murder. It propels us, it stirs up our emotions, it turns us on. Maybe if we could just sandwich such incidents with at least one happy moment. Hasn't someone just turned 120? Has a baby just been born? Has some man conquered over a lifelong disease? I guess we will never find out.

I fret for my children (if I were ever to have children). What will things be like then? This country needs a reconstruction from the base up. We are decaying and falling and failing. We are restless.